AFTER USING ME, THEY HAVE THREATENED ME TO SHUT UP

I was a 19 year old guy when I met her. She was around 35. I was doing an internship at where she was working. I remember she used to say nice things about me all the time. I wasn’t staying close to her but she will insist on giving me a ride home. I was staying with a cousin and his family when school was on vacation. My cousin used to ask me about the woman and why she was always buying me things and giving me a ride home. He saw the woman’s intentions from far and warned me to stick to my books because I was too young for this.

 

As for me, I liked the attention she was giving me. She was the boss of that branch too. But sometimes, I didn’t believe my cousin’s words that she was interested in me. She was treating me like a younger brother or a nephew. When I was finishing my internship, she threw a party for me. One of the workers was even telling me that she has never done that for anyone. It wasn’t a big thing, just the workers, but there was enough to eat and drink. School resumed and I returned to campus. Once a while, she would call and ask about me. She sent me money every week. She was like an angel from heaven cos my folks couldn’t send me enough money for my upkeep. One Saturday morning, I returned from the football field and I was just undressing to go and take my bath when she called me. She said she was infront of my hall and I should get dressed. She was taking me out.

 

We went out. This became normal. We got very close and I saw that the woman was into me. For me, I was in for the money. It’s not as if she isn’t nice. She is nice, but I can’t say I felt love for her. Eventually, she took me to her house and we got down to s*x. Her husband was a very busy guy. He was always travelling. At the time I met her, they had been married for over 6 years with no child. The way this woman was picking me every Saturday after my football practice and taking me to her house for s*x, I read the situation and saw that she wanted me to give her a child. So let me explain. When I was doing the internship, there was one time she brought some health people to come and do std tests and HIV tests on us. Our section was less than 10 people and she insisted that she was doing it for free out of the kindness of her heart.

Then before we had s*x for the very first time, she called me to escort him to a fertility clinic. When I was there waiting for her to have some tests done, a nurse approached me and told me that std tests were free and I could do them to check my status. At that time I didn’t know she didn’t have a child. I later found out that all the time she said she was paying for her children’s fees, it was her sister’s children she was referring to. So I read the situation and asked her if she was using me to get a child. Her husband has a problem. At that time, I was just a broke guy enjoying s*x with mature woman. I was just 19 when we started. The following year, she got pregnant and gave birth to a boy. Then a year later a girl came. Then another boy came like two years later. Within this time, I finished school and she took me in as an NSS personnel at her workplace. I knew I was already going to be a full-time employee.

 

The woman took very good care of me. 10 years later and I’m in my own house and in a stable relationship. After the last kid, we reduced s*xual relations gradually until we stopped. I understood the arrangement. The husband knew what I was doing for him but he never spoke to me about it and he is far older than me but he always acted shy around me. I understood that so I stayed away from him when I visit their house and I give him respect. The children call me their uncle and I visit them anytime I can. I don’t have any plans to claim them as my own or anything like that. As they grow up, I see the resemblance they have with me and as for the first born, he is like my photocopy. They have planned to go and stay outside the country with the kids. By the way they were talking, they don’t plan on coming home. The man already has dual citizenship so it will be easy to bring his family with him.

I love to have the kids around me. I wont claim them as my own, but they are mine and I want to watch them grow and know me as their uncle. I don’t like the idea that they are going and never coming back. The woman said I am acting like a child and I should just accept it and keep my mouth shut or else I won’t know what they are capable of. I have taken it as a threat. As for money, they have established me well. I won’t go into details, but I will not be hungry for as long as I live. I have a girlfriend and I hope I marry her in the future. I just feel like the woman and her husband have cheated me. No matter the money they have given me, sending the kids far away from me has made me depressed. What can I do to make them understand me?