I don’t know how it started or when it became this serious but I realized before my first time of ever having s*x that I was aroused by a man’s foul odour. Let me explain; on a normal day If I’m not in the mood for anything s*xual, I hate the smell, but when I’m aroused and I smell that scent, I get even more wet and it’s so strange to me. But I can also get aroused by a man’s scent if I haven’t had s*x for a while and I crave it. When guys go and play football or any other sport and they pass by me, that natural manly sweaty scent can make me crave intimacy with them. I’m not referring to smelly armpit or strong odour, but there is this natural manly scent that is hard to describe unless you smell it. I realized that I craved for it so much. It was later that I got to know it’s called a fetish and other women have the same fetish as well, just that I haven’t met another woman with the same fetish.
It’s not as if people are going round telling each other what they do secretly. Some people assume you’re mentally unstable for having such fetishes, but I don’t think it’s true. There is this odour that a man produces around his groin. It’s not the same odour from a woman. That odour turns me on so much that if a man has taken his bath and is smelling fresh, I may not be as wet. I had a few boyfriends and none of them understood that fetish until I met one guy who did. He will give me his boxers for me to smell so that I could get wet. Then we will get intimate and do other things. I sticked to him for three years and I thought we will be together for a long time but this guy broke my heart in a very painful way by cheating on me with a friend. I tried to meet other men like him, but the moment they realize I liked to smell their dirty boxers or their groin area, it was weird to them and they didn’t want me anymore.
Along the line I met another guy on tinder and I told him straightaway about my fetish. I didn’t want us to start something serious with him for him to dump me when he gets to know about my fetish. Surprisingly he said he liked the idea of that and we tried it. He took it a step further by adding his pair of socks and I realised I liked the smell of worn socks too. It’s not as if I like very smelly things. It’s not that extreme. If a boxer shorts has been worn for a whole day, I like the smell. But if the smell is extreme, like it’s been worn for days, I hate it. It’s the same with the socks too. My boyfriend also developed a fetish of smelling my panties and we were doing it to ourselves. But at a point I felt like the relationship was not going anywhere. It was just us having s*x and doing freaky things but we had no plans.
At least we should have future plans and hobbies and other things doing but it was s*x all the time and I was just tired of him so I ended it with him. I got really depressed after that because I didn’t know who to turn to and open up to about my fetish. I started believing something was wrong with me because I told my best friend about my fetish for the first time and she looked at me in a very weird way. I don’t see it as a bad thing. I just like the natural man scent so much that it gets me wet, but apparently it was weird and after my friend’s reaction, I decided to get the help of a psychologist and see. I got one and I was able to open up to her. But then I had to pay for every one-hour meeting and I felt like it was draining me so I stopped going for the meetings.
I decided to open up to my pastor because it was eating me up and he wasn’t taking money for counselling. My pastor told me my fetish is demonic and he took me through some time of prayer and fasting. He told me to stop having s*x and not enter into a relationship for now. We ended a ten day fast last week and nothing has changed. When I pass by a man with natural scent, I start getting wet and since I haven’t had s*x for months now, the arousal is intense. Some trotro mates have bad armpit smells, that doesn’t arouse me, but then some have this mild body scent that makes me wet and now I’m wondering if fetishes are really demonic because my pastor says that if the fasting doesn’t work, I’ll have to come for deliverance because he believes I may be possessed without knowing it. Please are there other ways I can solve this problem? I’ve read some materials online about fetishes and most say that it’s normal, but I just don’t know what to think or believe anymore. I need help.