On Vals day, I went out with some friends to have fun. My husband and I were having a fight and we weren’t on talking terms. I don’t remember the details of the quarrel, but it had something to do with something I had bought that he didn’t approve of. Why are some men so stingy? My husband calculates everything I use his money for and it is so annoying. We had the quarrel days to Vals day and right now, I even feel like he intentionally brought the issue up so that we will fight and he will not have to buy me anything on vals day or take me out. I wasn’t going to allow his annoying attitude to spoil the fun I wanted to have on that day. So me and my single friends went clubbing in the evening. This was my life before I got married. When we stepped out, I felt like a single woman again. I forgot about the issues I was having at home and all the problems my twin daughters were giving me. My friends and I got drunk and danced into the midnight. I made a handsome friend that night who dropped me off at home.
When I entered the room, my husband was fast asleep so I didn’t have to explain anything to him. The silent treatment continued for weeks. All this while, I was chatting with the new guy I met at the club on Val’s day. Somewhere along the line, I visited him at his workplace. It is a well-known private company in Ghana. We had a quickie in his office on that day. In the days that followed that, he invited me over to his house and we had a lot of sex there. He was married with a son. His wife and son were in abroad and he had the house all to himself. When I realized I was pregnant, I panicked. My husband and I have not been intimate for several weeks and instead of aborting, I decided to patch things up with him and have sex with him so that I can give the child to him as his. So on that particular day I waited for him to get back from work for me to apologise and seduce him. But he came home very tired and angry. He had to travel for a month. It was something in relation to the business and he had to go meet up a client in another region. We patched things up that night and we started kissing. But he told me he was very tired and he needed me to help him pack some things. He told me he was sorry for not being there for me and the twins. That when he returns, he will make time for family. At that moment, I regretted cheating on him, but I had already done that. I tried initiating sex again, but he was really not in the mood and I had to stop.
Before I woke up the next morning, my husband had left for a different region for at least a month. As I write this, his stay over there has been extended by his boss. He would be given additional allowances for that. We do video calls every evening with the kids and he promises to return soon. But my pregnancy will not wait. What do I do? At this stage of the pregnancy, he will know it is not his baby even if we have sex now. It is too late. I can’t abort it too.
Apart from the risks, it is against my morals to kill a child. When he travelled, I tried to visit him, but he told me he was so busy and he wouldn’t get time for me when I come. He will be given a vacation when he returns and is looking forward to taking me somewhere for some intimate time. My stomach will start potruding soon. What do I do? I have told my lover that I am carrying his baby. He told me to abort it immediately, but I didn’t do it. I need urgent help. I feel very ashamed of what I have done. If my husband comes home and divorces me because of the pregnancy, what will I do?
