For the purposes of this confession, let me call him Uncle Kay. He is a married man. He and my father have been friends for as long as I can remember. When I was a child, my dad used to visit him a lot and I would go over and play with his only daughter. She was just two years older than me and as we grew up, we became like best friends. Unfortunately, she fell ill in SHS boarding house and died when she was about 17 years. My dad was still taking me to her father’s house on weekends. Sometimes he goes to watch football there. Uncle Kay is a generous man. He is kind to everyone so I didn’t find it strange when he started buying me things. He would say that I remind him of his daughter so he has adopted me as his own. He was very good to me so I started developing feelings for him. He was more affectionate to me that my father was and I don’t know if that is why I started getting closer to him, but it just happened.
I would text him and ask of him. Then he will call me and chat me for hours. He didn’t tell my dad and I also didn’t tell him. One day, Uncle Kay told me he was going to Las palmas to eat fufu and I should join him. I was 20, he was 46. I had just gotten admission to UPSA after writing novdec for two years. Later, this became normal. He will come and pick me at school and take me out to eat. All this while he will tell me I was like his daughter. So although I was attracted to him, I ignored the feelings because I thought he only saw me as a daughter. Then one time he told me he doesn’t like the hostel I was in so he has rented a place for me around Madina. It wasn’t far from campus and when I went to look at the place, it was a very nice 2 bedroom house. So I told him I would move there with a friend. He said no. He wanted me to have the place to myself. That was a hint to me. I realised he wanted me in a sexual way and I liked it.
He furnished the apartment for me. On the first weekend after I moved into the new place. He came to visit me. He said he wanted to be sure I was okay. He stayed over and even slept in the second bedroom. On the next day which was Sunday, we stayed indoors, watched movies and through that he started to kiss me and we had sex there. Since that encounter, we have been having sex for about 8 months. My dad and Uncle Kay’s wife does not suspect a thing. But now I am wondering if there is any future in this?
I have started feeling very depressed lately. It has also spilled over to all aspects of my life, including my academics. I don’t know how my dead friend would react to the affair I am having with her father if she was alive. I even wonder if she can see what is going on. I can’t tell my dad. He has sacrificed so much for me and I don’t want to create a problem between him and Uncle Kay. Meanwhile, after the death of Uncle Kay’s daughter, his wife has never been the same. It will greatly affect her and I don’t want to be the cause of any further troubles for her. Uncle Kay has really taken care of me. I will be very ungrateful if I act like he hasn’t done anything. Right now, he is even enrolling me in a driving school. He wants to buy a car for me when I’m done. Should I continue to enjoy the goodies or I should end it? At this point I feel like I will still lose both ways.
