I met him when I was doing my National Service. We were both going to submit our monthly evaluation forms at the NSS district office and we started a conversation. He didn’t propose to me during NSS but we were chatting everyday and we stayed in touch. I was lucky to get a job right after NSS, but he is still unemployed. We started meeting on weekends at the mall and then he showed me his house one time. He told me he was interested in me and I accepted. I waited for so long for him to propose because from the very first day I saw him I was attracted to him. We started having sex right in the first time I visited him. It turned into a weekend ritual and we both couldn’t get enough of each other.
The only problem is that we just seem to be attracted to each other but our beliefs are all so different. He is a serious Jehovah Witness guy. His parents and Grandparents are all in it and it will even be like he is betraying them if he leaves the church. I am in a charismatic church and our beliefs are very different from what he believes. We celebrate birthdays and festivals like Christmas and Easter. He doesn’t celebrate all of those. During my birthday I was expecting him to at least wish me and send me a little gift. He didn’t do any of that because of his beliefs. I am really big about Christmas. It’s the time of the year where everyone seems to be celebrating and going out and having fun. My boyfriend doesn’t want us to do any of that because his faith does not allow him to celebrate Christmas.
Apart from this issue, he is a very messy person. When I go and visit him, I spend time taking his shirts from the floor and making his bed. I like to tidy my surroundings and to make sure that things are in order in my room. So when I enter his room and I look at the state of it anytime I visit, it bothers me greatly. We have talked about this many times. He has told me he will change but he ends up doing the same thing over and over again and I don’t know if I am overreacting but his messy nature worries me a lot.
The way he thinks and the way he sees the world is just different from me and now I don’t know if attraction is enough to keep our relationship together. It seems the only thing that is keeping us from breaking up is this strong physical attraction. We can have sex several rounds in a day and not get tired of our bodies. I don’t want to leave him because he is exactly the man I see in my dreams. I just wish I can change his mindset and make him think like me. My sister has told me to break up with him because attraction is not enough to keep a relationship together. But I cannot imagine my life without him. I want his face to be the first thing I see in the morning and the last thing I see before going to bed. If this is not love then what is it?
