I have known him since 2012. I moved in with my mum after I completed high school. we lived in the same house, so we became friends. He completed tertiary and he left the house around 2014. We spoke once a while. Somewhere in 2015-2016, he made a move on me but I pretended I wasn’t seeing the point he was driving at because as at the time, I was in a relationship. We lost communication from 2016 until we started talking again during the covid time. I had just suffered a serious heartbreak and he gave me a shoulder to cry. He was very supportive during those times. He wanted us to go on a trip so I could free my mind but I kept saying no anytime he brought the issue up because I was scared he might take advantage of my situation.
In 2021, we stopped talking for no reason until late August, 2021, I approached him one Sunday and I asked if I had offended him, but he said no. We started talking again and he started making moves on me again. We hanged out most of the time and he gave me money even when I hadn’t asked him. He fell sick in September and that day, I couldn’t reach through to him. I called him the whole day but his phone was off and it got me worried. I later got through to him in the evening and he told me that he was sick. I went over to see him that evening and we ended up making out.
I told him he has gotten what he wanted all this while so is he okay now? He told me to stop that. 2 weeks after the incident, I asked him what the way forward was and he said we should give it a try and see how it goes so we started dating somewhere in October. I lost my job during covid and I had still not gotten anything to do. He made me send my CV so he could pull strings for me to get a job until God helped me get one in November 2021. Anytime I’m sick, he pays all or part of my hospital bills for me. He sometimes gives me money to work, for my hair and stuff. We have never had a major fight or argument since we started dating. He always looked out for me and made sure I exceled in what I did both at work and in my personal life. He advised me when the need be.
All this while, I never told my spiritual father about it because I wasn’t sure of how the relationship was going to end. Somewhere in April, my spiritual father asked me who is Sammy and I told him that I know a lot of people with that name. He told me that, there is this Sammy guy who likes me but he is asking about me from someone and the person is giving bad info about me to him so we have to pray against it. A month later, I decided to open to my spiritual father about my relationship with Sammy because I felt, since he told me the guy likes me, there is an assurance that it is going to work. He asked me if the guy was working and I said yes. Days later I had 2 dreams on different occasions with regards to marriage so I told my spiritual father about it and he said I should slow down with the guy. He called later in the evening and asked me to break up with the guy. He said I won’t understand the reason because he knows I love the guy. I told him OKAY.
Just yesterday which was Monday, I called him and he said why have I not broken up with the guy? That am I waiting to see what will happen before I break up with him or what? On Sunday, he mentioned that the guy is hiding something from me and that I should leave him because I will meet another guy who is okay. Truth of the matter is that, Sammy has been supportive, even when he moved to his new place, he asked me to go check the place if I liked it and I said yes. When we were setting the room up, he made me choose the colors of the items we will place in the room and how the set should be. He left everything for me to decide. He literally involves me in most of his stuff. How do I walk up to him and tell him let’s break up whilst he hasn’t offended me in any way?
Last week Thursday, I posted something on my status and he called my cousin to ask her if I had another boyfriend because I have posted something on my status and he knows we are not fighting so he is surprised. Knowing him, if he doesn’t care about something, he won’t waste his time so for him to have called my cousin, I felt he really likes and cares about me. I have prayed about it but I’m still confused. I have fasted and I still don’t know what to do. It giving me sleepless nights and I have started having panic attacks also. I spoke with some people and they all kept saying the same thing that I should pray about it and I should ask my spiritual father why he saying I should break up.
Please help me because I’m confused and it is affecting my work and my general being. I am teary as I write and I’m unable to concentrate at work.